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add me! [06 Jul 2006|08:57am]

[ mood | worried ]

i hope im allowed to do this here...

my name is leslie...i use to be moless2001 but i have switched screen names...basically cause i needed a change...

im a 24 years old black female, currently residing in las vegas, nv, trying like hell to get out! i hate it here!!

i dunno i write about my dysfunctional family...my nonexistent relationships...my disappointing friendships...my hellish jobs... etc...

im interesting. i swear...i talk about sex & masturbation A LOT...

i make jokes about God, but i believe im just not religious...

im open minded & i love everyone...

im looking for new friends on lj, as well as in life...

if you like me add me...thanx!

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Announcement [20 Feb 2006|07:18pm]

Greetings to all in 2006. I've made a couple of changes to the community so that I can keep up with this place. You've been warned of two things...

1) Anybody attempting to join will now be screened.

2) Anybody attempting to make a post will be screened.

Part of this is to make sure folks don't go advertising (as I've seen in the past) as apposed to general posting and to allow me to better monitor.

Also, I was thinking this place needs a new look. Any suggestions on the them for all you LJ techs that are members?

Much love to you all and please, if you think you need support or help, ask and maybe someone can help, and make it a security post if you want to. This place isn't about judgement and if a little chat can ease one's mind, let's try to make a positive impact.

The Mod
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ohmashit [14 Feb 2006|03:49pm]

Ever just hear somebody's voice over the telephone and all of a sudden you can feel them inside you at that very second and your heart starts beating just remembering the last time and the next time!

Damn i dont even celebrate valentines day.... BUT damn its been a Good ASS (literally & figuratively) DAY!


Oh my shit his Shit is Powerful...

when they said that sequels are better they didnt lie!
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i got a confession... [10 Nov 2005|05:06pm]

...i want my father dead, preferrably by my own hands.
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Hurt [10 Nov 2005|12:39pm]

I know I am not suppose to be thinking like this...but when I read the obituary for my Grandmother I thought I'd make the list of GRANDCHILDREN....but I guess because we have no blood connection, my true and absolute love and dedication to her was not good enough in the eyes of those that wrote the obituary. This truly hurt me...I am not quite sure why, but it did!
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Well Well [31 Oct 2005|07:25pm]

[ mood | accomplished ]

IT Fuckin IS what IT IS.......... Okay this weekend I was fuckin on 1 Like no Lie no Joke no Bullshit........... Like honestly it was if I was living 3 fucking Lives.......... On friday I had brand new sex with this dude that I have known for a hella long while thing about is that I had to fuckin call his ass out and call him all types of demeaning names for ass to get his balls together and move something Its crazy........ And Then On Saturday I had Fierce and Fantastic sex with my Main dick for right now I been fuckin with him since december and then we went our seperate ways for about 7 months and we hooked back up it and yeah I dont want to get too raunchy........... And Sunday I had "no strings attached" I got and u need it sex and the Dick is always a pleasure(lol)......... Yeah I know it sounds bananas but It was actually what I needed b/c each DICK was different....... They Technics all fucking different I am dead serious....... Technic is the way to good Dick and sum dudes are Great in Different areas once again I am not going in detail....... YEP YEP YEP ITS good TO be Pussy in THIS dicknage..........

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[31 Oct 2005|03:08pm]

[ mood | craving sooo bad right now! ]

Better than the Michael Jordan comeback............

that was my last friday, i guess it had been awhile since i had sex. shit it had been since August and before that it had been since like April! i know crazy that in the past 6 months i have only had sex three times. That is especially CRAZY for me since i breathed and craved sex almost like an artist craves paints. I guess you could say SEX back then was my own twisted Art. It was a skill a talent a hobby of mine that i lived daily and seeked to perfect it and learn something new from it everytime it came my way. (lol no pun intended)

but on Friday, i jumped into it like i was never on a temporary break! And that shit was better than the Michael Jordan comeback. i aint never had wave after wave of good shit like that. Thats the type of shit that you don't give up NEVER. That back breakin' rare send you in spirals type shit, pass out in the middle and realize he is still going and your still.... sorry i faded off somewhere inbetween there.

Now im cravin him bad and on saturday boy was the sexual tension in the air. When mere kisses leave you... okay i have to stop.... i keep flashing back and im at work so thats not a good idea... so ill leave you with this.

I dont care BUT I ain't Given up his good shit for nothing!

A date and a movie? 60 dollars.

A Bump and Grind CD playing in the background? 10 dollars.

Good aSS dick that leaves you still shaking in the morning time and breathing heavy just at the mere thought of that shit inside you again? PRICELESS!

yep.. Better than the Michael Jordan come back!

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[21 Aug 2005|09:12pm]

[ mood | undecided ]

I hate him. I wish he would die slow...

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Ok [14 Aug 2005|12:38am]

This is my first confession anywhere public... so I don't really know... what to do. This is a little bit of a weird story, but I suppose it's what happens to a lonely girl with teenage hormones, heh.

Well, my dad is the drummer in a local band, it's oldies, not crazy or anything. And since he's joined there's a bassist who was in one of his older bands in the 80's. Well, I decided I wanted to play bass, so I took lessons from him, whom we'll call "Tom". So things are going along ok, and I began to play on stage. Lately I've been feeling oddly towards 'Tom' and... I'm feeling a tension. Take into account I'm 15 and he's mid 40's. Everyone knows he's slightly lonely, he has a dog that lives with him, but overall no interests love wise. I can tell he looks sometimes, who wouldn't? And you know how when you like someone, whenever they look at you, you take it as a sign they like you? Well it's gotten to that point... I just want to be around him, and help him out. And we talk sometimes, and can get pretty deep. It's just I know our age prevents us from talking more. And God, I don't want anything with him, it's just I... feel rele attracted to him. And I don't know what to do.

I feel like when the band doesn't play for a few weeks, it's tough cuz I want to see him and talk to him. I... I just don't know how to describe. I feel ashamed because of this...
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you tell me if this sounds bad... [11 Aug 2005|11:50am]

[ mood | calm ]

I met a guy a while back and he was extremely sexy, but something just wasn't quite right about him. After getting to know him, i still have a hard time figuring out what's going on in his mind...it's like he's hiding something. I've been fucking said guy for the past two weeks, he's great in bed. The thing is, i still basically know NOTHING about this gentleman except for his first and last name and I'm not even sure that that's right after something that happened recently. My point, though, is that this mystery is part of what turns me on about him. I'm getting off on the fact that i'm getting off with a complete stranger. Does that make any sense at all? Should i be seeking a shrink?

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I Confess..... [10 Jul 2005|11:32am]

The next time I go to Vegas I want to have a one night stand with a guy I met memorial day weekend. I can not get this man off my mind for some reason,I wanted to take down when I first met him but something was holding me back.When I go back in August he is mine.
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[ mood | calm ]


This was brought to my attention from a guy that goes by screen name "Nazy Mouf" and I thought I would post on here.



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i confess... [28 Apr 2005|01:09am]

that i don't know what the deal is. i have i'm not pressed enough to post a picture but trust that i'm not hit. but dudes be straight giving me the run around. i'm not crazy, or needy. even guys that used to be pressed to be in my life seem to only view me with mild interest. i didn't suddenly get ugly or fat, cut my hair or any of the other superficial things that make guys suddenly view you as less attractive.

i confess that i really need to remedy this situation...i confess that a person i'm considering "remedying" it with is really off-limits...but i'm still considering it anyway. and maybe i should feel shady...but i don't.
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dickmatized! [21 Apr 2005|04:13pm]

[ mood | dickmatized ]

So it is real weird i was sitting on the computer thinking i need to get some shit off my chest and i was like i should write it in blaqconfessionz... so here it goes:

It has been two weeks since i had that OooWee. That knock off your socks good shit. The shit you only read about or hear about. Now I have been real blessed as of late in this last year with good ass dick. I mean the shit that has you speaking in another language type shit.

And recently I got in a relationship totally out of the blue and unexpected and i expected because there were feelings and emotions involved for the didck to be just that dick you know Nothing to ride home about literally and figuratively.

BUT i was wrong and thrown off guard when the sex was just ass good ass when i was having sex no when i was fuckin with no strings attached. It is better because its like best of both fuckin worlds!

But the whole point of this entry is that it has been two weeks. And Im losing my mind. I have been dickmatized as a friend would say. I wake up and I go to sleep with his dick on my mind. Like palms sweating, dreams, and all... I'm fuckin attached, dick attached... and taht shit is dangerous for a guy to be that fuckin great that not only does he have me acting a fool in bed or wherever we decide to do the damn thing BUT im acting a fool because it has been awhile.

All I have to say is that when shit is good. When dick is that good it can fuck up your mind.

till then and ever...

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first entry [06 Apr 2005|02:50pm]

[ mood | confused/frustrated/blank ]

This is my first time writing an entry in blaqueconfessions.......So first of all this entry is about this guy that I was having a sexual relationship with since about december of 04'...I met him at this little kick back me and my friends attended and like a week or 2 later we "hooked up" and it was gr8,words cant explain neways that situation went on until feb.4 we just stopped talking after that and I had decided it was for the best....It wasnt in my best interest to keep on with the relationship so i was moving on talking to other ppl i hooked up with one other guy after him and he was kool once again that was just a sexual fufillment neways I was really moving on or i thought i was......Then of course.... what happens? YES he calls me after 2 full months exactly (Apr.4) of not hearing a single solitare word from his ass he decides to pick up the phone, however he told me he had been in jail for awhile, he went to jail a week or 2 after we last "hooked up" and he just got out like the day he called or the day b4, Crazy thing is that we talked like we had never stopped talkin and he was like he wanted to come see me and i was like no im leaving in like 15 mins and he was koo so i told him he can come over on tuesday and he said okay just call him and i was like okay but i didnt call him yesterday because I am not sure if i want to go down that road again, he is really kool ppl and i do enjoy his company but i am not sure if it can truly be more than a sexual relationship(u cant really give up good dick)and i have realized that i am worth more than just sex and then again i hate dealing with guys who go to jail often i have already been through that and i didnt appreciate who i was in that relationship.....I am soo frustrated in what to do or maybe deep down I already know what I am going to do......I dont know

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Study...But I don't wanna [25 Mar 2005|07:39pm]

[ mood | I love this song ]

OMG...I am such a freakin procrastinator. I have class at 8:30 in the morning and I haven't done any of my homework. I've missed two classes...one before and one after spring break. So I must attend this one. And the thing is...this is for my major. But I had to make sure that I posted this.

Today my ex best friend came over to my house asking if she could stay with me until she found a place to stay since her boyfriend (my ex) put her out. I'm like WTF??? No...u better go back and stay with your mother. My mom told me I was being mean and vindictive. I don't think so. Now if we were still girls I would have no problem with letting her stay at my place for awhile. My mom is like, "She has a baby though." And just like I said, she can go stay with her mother. So when I told her that she couldn't stay with me she went off on me like "THIS IS ALL YOUR FAULT", calling me all out my name and everything. NO NO honey...u brought this all on yourself. I may have had a small part in this but u can't blame everything on me. Then to make matters worse, my ex decides to drop by my house...after he sends me flowers and a invitation to dinner while I'm at work. Still don't know if I wanna accept that or not. As soon as he walks in she turns to me like..."I see u didn't take no time getting with my man." No this chick didn't. So to prevent shit from getting broken in my house, I politely ask the lil wench to leave. She's cussing all the way to the cab she had to catch over here since he took the car from her. Then I have to inform him that it is not polite to drop by without calling me first. I could have been busy with some other things. He notices the flowers on my table and is like, "I take it u liked the flowers?" I'm like, "Yea I like them." Then he starts talking about me and him and how we need to talk about our relationship. I had to stop him right there. "We don't have a relationship or did u forget?" He's like, "but we had sex yesterday and that's how we always used to make up when we had a argument." Like I said did u forget that u were dating my girl...not for a few weeks but for a few months. That's a big NO NO in my book. I'm like you're lucky that I'm even talking to u now, anybody else wouldn't get that privilege. So then he starts talking all this crap about how he has realized that he did me wrong and he wants me back. And for a min I believe him and I think about saying yes we can get back together...but then I'm like WTF is wrong with me??? If he did it once he will do it again. But the thing is, I didn't think he would do it in the first place. I thought I knew him. We've been friends since we were like one years old. So I'm a lil confused on what to do...if I should get back with him or just say screw u and go on about my life. I would really like some input on this.

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I just noticed??? [24 Mar 2005|11:48pm]

[ mood | indescribable ]

I have just realized that everything that I say about guys turns about to be true. Well not all guys but at least the ones I know and talk to. They are some good liars. My ex and my ex best friend are dating now and me and him had sex today. Now I know that's not cool at all but I didn't have sex with him to piss her off. But that's what he told her. He said that I called him and begged him to come over to my house and when he got here I was all over him telling him that I wanted to get back at her so let's have sex. OMG!!! And the thing that really got to me was the fact that this broad believed all this BS. This girl has known me for what...seven years and she's been dating him for all of 8 months and she believes him and not me. Me and her were like sisters and she should know that I am not that type of person. I tried to explain to the girl that it wasn't even like that. I wasn't even thinking about trying to hurt her when all of this was going down...I was horny so I was thinking about me and my own needs. Maybe that's it right there. I was only thinking of myself. So she's all up in my face...she had the nerve to come to my house and try to start shit with me. She's all like I can't believe u did me like this...u know how much I love him...and blah blah blah blah blah. So I listen to this chick rant and rave for a good 5 mins and then I had to remind her that she was my best friend but she violated the only rule we had within our friendship...she straight took my man from me. It would be different if we wre broken up but we were still together when she fucked him. So actually she didn't take him from me...I was just pissed that I didn't want to be bothered with either one of them. She then goes on to tell me how much they love eachother and all this non-sense while he's standing there looking stupid and shaking his head while she's talking. Then he comes right out and tells thise whore that he knows she's been fucking other guys so he wanted to get back at her. Now I'm standing there like OMG this nigga used me to get back at her. I'm like are u serious???? He tells her that he doesn't love her and he never did...he was just there because he didn't want to see her and her child out on the street. So she's standing there looking all stupid and everything. Then he tells her that he's giving her until the 31st to have all her shit out of his house and he wants the keys to everything. I could not believe it at all. I have been knowing this guy all my life...we used to take baths together and I have never seen him so upset in my life. Oh and he apologized to me. Not that it's going to fix things between me and him. He's like I wasn't trying to use u or anything like that but I will call u later and we will talk about some stuff. I'm like yea, whatever. I don't have time for all this high school stuff. But I'm confused because he is my childhood friend and some may say he's my soulmate but why in the hell would he do me like that in the first place. Not only did he cheat on me but he did it with my girl. So I'm just feeling a lot of different things right now.

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[24 Mar 2005|08:28pm]

[ mood | confused ]

Today was a day that I would rather forget. I stayed home from school today because I just didn't feel like going. I'm at home doing a lil bit of cleaning...you know washing my clothes and cleaning my room and everything. Well my ex calls. My ex just so happens to be my ex best friend's current boyfriend. He ask if he can come over to bring me some fliers to pass out for him. I think nothing of it so I say yes. I'm trying to be mature about this situation since he is dating my used to be friend. Long story short...he comes over and we have sex. I seriously don't know what happened. In my head I'm thinking this is so wrong but I do it anyway. So after we do the do and he leaves, I'm thinking to myself...did I just do that to get back at his girl??? I really wasn't thinking about her though. It's not like I said to myself or him that we should have sex so I can piss ya girl off.  He then called me and was like I don't plan on telling her what happened if u don't.  I don't know if I should call and tell her or just let it go.  I think if i do tell her she just might think that I'm lying or trying to break them up.  So I'm a lil confused about that one.   

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[24 Mar 2005|01:16am]

[ mood | ecstatic ]

So I called Dre and we had a lil conversation about how I feel about him and how he feels about me. So I just came right out and told him that I am very attracted to him. He then told me that he is also attracted to me. I then went on to tell him that I am sexually attracted to him also. I thought that would be a bad idea but it really wasn't. He told me that he had a girlfried a few months ago when I tried to talk to him and that he wanted to make sure he was over that before he got into another relationship. So I'm like are u ready to be in a relationship? And he's like yea...with u. I couldn't believe it. I'm sitting there speechless because I didn't think he was feeling like that. So we made a date for this weekend to talk about some stuff and get to know each other a lil better than we do now. He invited me over to his house and he wants to cook me dinner. Now I don't want to rush into anything but um...he wants to cook me dinner so I plan on hanging on to this one. He works, has is own place, no children (not that there is anything wrong with that), his own car (two actually), goes to school, and he can cook. HE'S A KEEPER!!!!!!!! Is it bad that I've posted 3 entries in a row???? Just wondering.

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MY CRUSH [24 Mar 2005|12:26am]

[ mood | It's freezing in my house!!! ]

Ok so my brother has been getting his hair cut at the same place since we moved to Detroit and I am in love with his barber. His name is Dre and he is GORGEOUS!!!!!!!!!! I don't know what it is but he is just so cute to me. Now I can burn my own CDs at home but I have to go up to the shop and get CDs from him just so I can see him. That probably sounds a lil stalker-ish but he is too cute. He knows that I like him...a lot but just like a bunch of guys that I know...he is not ready to be in a relationship. But guess what...neither am I. I don't just wanna come right out and say that I wanna bone him. I've called him a couple of times and he's called me but we never went out on any type of date or anything. Maybe I should just be blunt with him and tell him what the real deal is. I think I'm gonna call right now.

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